I adore homeschooling. I really do. I love being with my kids and living life with them. I love the planning and paperwork. Yes, we have hard days, but when you've lived through the loss of a child, "hard days" has a new meaning and a new context. Anyway, I wanted to have a place to talk about and discuss and process and store my homeschooling plans and ideas. Mostly I want this place for my own sanity. When you are schooling 6 kids from high school down to preschool, and you have an infant, life gets a little chaotic. I don't love chaos. This will be a place I can logically sort through my own ideas. But maybe others can gain something from my experience, trials, failures, and success. And this place doesn't feel like the right place for that. So I am starting another blog. If you are a homeschooler, follow me at myfavoritehomeschoolplans.blogspot.com. If you have questions about homeschooling, post to them there and I will try to answer if I can or I will point you in the right directions with resources.
We are doing a lot of changes in our homeschool world this year. I am entering a phase in homeschooling that just feels too similar to our last year with Abigail. A 1 year old at home, teaching a child to read, doing the ancient world and biology. I had to change things up for my own sanity. I have found some awesome new curriculum and researched a ton more.
I have some posts in the works for this blog as well. Updates on the kids. Updates on grief at 3 years out. Our struggles that are constant, some that are new, and some things that are easier than they were. I have had many hard days this summer aching for my little bit. It amazes me at times how that darkness can just sneak up on me and then body slam me when I least expect it. The quiet pain is constant, but that overwhelming crushing weight seems to sit behind me just waiting till I'm off my guard. In 3 years, I have learned how to avoid certain triggers, how to be intentional in grieving to give myself focus and at least the appearance of sanity, but grief is a nasty monster and he takes over when you least expect it.
Anyway, follow my other blog if you are interested. If you know someone that has lost a child, please feel free to share this blog or email me directly. I am honored to talk to anyone who needs support walking through the darkness of child loss.