Monday, February 14, 2011

Dear Abigail on Valentine's

(our home study is in the mail to immigration! Yay!)

Suffering is coming home desperate to see your kids only to be hit with the reality again that you will never hold one of them again in this life. Home will never be quite home any more.

I miss you more than words can say baby girl. I have a constant aching yearning for you. I doubt it will ever go away and in fact I never want it to. I bought valentine's cards last year for you to use this year. I'm so sorry you never got the chance to give and receive cards. You would have been so excited. We are all missing you constantly and we seek to keep you an active part of our lives. You are a vital part of our family. Separation sucks. I wish I could see you here with your baby. I know how much you loved him in those 5 short weeks. I am terrified of the day that he is older than you. I am thankful for every moment I had with you, but I am greedy for more. 2 years isn't enough. You had learned and taught us so much, but there was so much more I wanted to share with you. I love you my princess. My little bit. My Abigail.


  1. Prayers for your heartache this Valentine's Day. I think of you, Abigail and your family often. (INCLUDING your new sweethearts)



  2. praying and crying. you know a suffering no one should know. i wish so much she were here. my heart breaks for you.

  3. crying and praying here too. calling out to God really. precious little one.